Wednesday, March 25, 2009

I saved my own life.

That's how I'm looking at it right now. The fact is, if I hadn't told my dermatologist that I was worried and wanted the mole removed, she never would have picked it out as being a problem. When I had my biopsy I asked her if there was anything strange looking about the mole to her, and she said no. She only took it because I wanted her to.

If I hadn't noticed it, who knows. I could have ended up dead in a year.

I saw the plastic surgeon today, and scheduled a miniature fleet of appointments. Stitches removal, pre op physical, surgery, post op (and I assume another round of stitches removal will be scheduled later.) As it stands they couldn't fit me in for surgery until April 20th. I hope to get a cancelation before that, because the timing isn't great for work.

When I have the surgery they will be carefully checking the skin for any evidence of migrating cancer cells. I should be okay, and if everything looks good then it is just Stage 1 and I'll have a 99% chance of being okay. Of course, there is the fact that I seem to be prone to melanoma, so I'll have to be even more careful than I've already been with my skin.

If they find more bad, then I think I'll need some lymph node biopsies, etc. I don't think my doctor expects them to find anything more.

The scar on my knee will probably be pretty big. I am hoping (oh so much) that I will come out of surgery with a normal looking scar. Depending on how it goes I may have a crazy puzzle scar if they have to move tissues around, or what I'm really afraid of.... a skin graft. I really really really don't want a skin graft, but I won't know until the surgery is over.

My priorities:
1) No more cancer in the area
2) No ugly skin graft

I'll be in a sexy leg brace for a while and will miss about a week of work.

I'm feeling a little calmer, but this is still very scary. I cried a few times today, but mostly about my puppy. I miss him....


At 8:49 AM, Blogger Dave said...

I'm glad you can find the positive. It's tough. I was able to do that when I was hit by the car. You can do it.

At 7:33 PM, Blogger m said...

Hi. I don't know you, but i read your blog as i was following the links through some knitting sites. Thinking of you and wishing for a healthy outcome. Hang in there.

At 8:32 PM, Blogger Michelle said...

definitely praying for you sarah...

At 2:23 PM, Blogger --TECHknitter said...

My ex had a stage 3 melanoma, also when he was in his twenties. Today he is in his 50's and going strong. I hope you will have a similar happy outcome. Good luck and best wishes.

At 10:02 AM, Anonymous Claudia said...

Thank goodness you were proactive about that! I'm sending you healthy vibes and prayers for health, peace and piece of mind.

At 6:44 AM, Blogger gleenn said...

hope everything is okay now. I'm praying for you :)


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