I'm only telling HALF the internet...

I'm pregnant again! We're crossing our fingers... 10 more days until the ultrasound to check for a heartbeat. It is so hard to wait, but I'm enjoying the hell out of being pregnant again.

I look like I'm 3 or 4 months along and not 6 weeks, so I'm already getting the smiles from strangers. Once I see the heartbeat I'm going straight to the Gap and buying some maternity jeans. I've never actually seen anyone get THIS big THIS fast! It is pretty surprising, especially considering my height. I'm already as big as I was at 7-8 weeks with my first pregnancy.

So... trying to enjoy each day and not get too stressed out. Goodness is it hard! If all goes well, I'm due in mid-September. Hurray!

I'm starting to feel a bit more normal. I forget every once in a while that I HAD been pregnant, but then there are other times when I start crying and can't help it. (Usually late at night, or else when someone is being too darn nice and sweet to me.)

We've decided to host Thanksgiving at our house as originally planned, so I have lots to do. My list is ready, and I'm going to go tackle the first (and most fun) item- buy a gravy boat. We've actually needed one a few times!

The blue sky is showing right now, after days of rain and many more days forecast in the future. Time to go while things are bright...

Oh, geez. Where do I even start?

The past 6 months have been some of the best and worst of my life.

We bought a house.

I got pregnant.

The baby's heart stopped beating a week ago. I was 9 weeks.

I feel so sad... You can't imagine, unless you can. In that case, I'm sorry...

Things are getting a little better day by day, and that is about all I can say. I'll try to be back here more often.

Ah, facebook. So tempting, with the easiness of posting. I'm sorry blog. Will you forgive me?

Want to vent...

Feeling a little barfy and having a bit of a cancer freakout over here.

FDR died of melanoma, according to this week's news. Did you hear? Steve said I shouldn't have read the article, but from the title there was no indication of what the interesting medical revelation was....

But that isn't why I'm freaking out.... It is the answer to the question I've been wondering. If my 5 year survival rate is 95%, what is the 10 year?

The answer is 88%. 88% 10 year survival, or 12% chance of me being gone by 36. I KNOW I should not be thinking about this, but I am and I'm just saying f--- over and over in my head, and I really really don't use language like that. 88%? That is... not reassuring.

This article has a lot of info about melanoma.

My next dermatology checkup is at the end of this month.... I need more information. I have this horrible want to know what the chance of having this melanoma come back EVER is, and the chance of developing another one. (I assume it is pretty much guaranteed....)

I can't let myself end up getting panic attacks about this, and I think that facts are the best way to avoid that.

Happy New Year!

Posts to come.... a recap of my holidays, plus our 6th annual fondue party. :o)

Steve has flown off to Taiwan, leaving a dirty house and a sick wife who is supposed to do report cards.

Somehow this makes the day off for Veteran's Day really not exciting.

I could open a craft store.

I have some serious craft overload going on right now. I'm sewing my first quilt, knitting and crocheting a kajillion things, and for some reason I went out today and bought four Japanese kirigami/papercutting books. Plus there are the new cookbooks and sewing books I got for my birthday. Yikes. I think I need to quit my job and just make things all day long...

Is this not the cutest puppy you have ever seen? (We named him Leo, by the way.)

The excellent photo was taken by my brother.

Another happy...

Good news- we are officially no longer SINKs-- we're DINKs*!

And this makes the day we can be DIOKs a bit closer. Or DITKs. I mean. Uh. Do they stop with the acronyms after you have children?**



* Dual Income No Kids (AKA Finally! A job!)

** I am not currently gestating any little Italians. That, my friend, is the hopeful future. The future of not yet. The future which will not be happening in 2009 or in 2010 so don't get too excited, buster.

I said this year was going to be great, and so far I'm right.

My class is wonderful, Steve has at least one job interview lined up, and my knitting and baking are providing me with endless entertainment...

I made cupcake bites for Steve's sister's wedding shower yesterday, where part of my gift was a shawl the bride will most likely wear at the wedding reception.

Here's me in the shawl! I, somewhat amazingly, was able to knit it in 6 days.



I'm going to try to post more regularly... yeesh. Sorry.

A few things...

I know I haven't been posting much. I've been busy relaxing. It is amazing how much better I feel now that last year is done. This year? This year is going to be awesome. And it is starting already.



Yosemite, a few days before our 2nd Anniversary. Steve took me on what he promised would be an easy hike, just a little uphill. HA! The Mist Trail gains 1,000 feet in elevation over a mile and a half, including stairs. I'm very proud of myself for getting all the way up, although it took quite a while. We packed homemade bread, along with salami, cheese, and fruit. It tasted awesome, but not quite as awesome as the Gatorade I bought back by the campgrounds after we finished our strenuous hike. (Because... strenuous is what the hike is rated as. Arg. Need to get in shape.)


On our actual anniversary we went to The Plumed Horse and had one of the fanciest, nicest meals of our lives. It was perfect.


I also finished this sweater. It is crazy soft.

But not as soft as....


Tiny fuzzy puppies! Meet the new family pet. He lives with my parents in Southern California, and we get to go hug and cuddle him for the first time this weekend. Mr. Puppy is currently nameless, but I think Leo and Jake are likely options. Ahh! SO cute!

TastyKitchen.com

So, I am pretty excited about a new website- Tasty Kitchen- from Ree Drummond of The Pioneer Woman.

Go check it out. I'm a tad frustrated right now about my inability to re-order ingredients in a recipe I entered, but I think that it is a little bug that should be fixed soon.

Knitting meme (For my personal enjoyment)

I feel like doing this for some reason, so feel free to either ignore or enjoy. ;o)

Mark with bold the things you have knit at least once, with italics the ones you plan to do sometime, and leave the rest.

I did stars instead of bold, because bolded text isn't very noticeable on my blog.

* Afghan
* I-cord
* Garter stitch
Knitting with metal wire
* Shawl
* Stockinette stitch
* Socks: top-down
* Socks: toe-up
Knitting with camel yarn
Mittens: Cuff-up
Mittens: Tip-down
* Hat
* Knitting with silk
* Moebius band knitting
* Participating in a KAL Sweater
Drop stitch patterns
Knitting with recycled/secondhand yarn
* Slip stitch patterns
Knitting with banana fiber yarn
Domino knitting (modular knitting)
* Twisted stitch patterns
Knitting with bamboo yarn
Two end knitting
Charity knitting
Knitting with soy yarn
* Cardigan
* Toy/doll clothing
* Knitting with circular needles
Knitting with your own handspun yarn
Slippers
Graffiti knitting (knitting items on, or to be left on the street)
Continental knitting
Designing knitted garments
* Cable stitch patterns (incl. Aran)
* Lace patterns
Publishing a knitting book
* Scarf
* Teaching a child to knit
* American/English knitting (as opposed to continental)
* Knitting to make money
* Button holes
* Knitting with alpaca
* Fair Isle knitting
Norwegian knitting
Dying with plant colors
Knitting items for a wedding
* Household items (dishcloths, washcloths, tea cozies…)
* Knitting socks (or other small tubular items) on two circulars
* Olympic knitting
Knitting with someone else’s handspun yarn
* Knitting with DPNs
* Holiday related knitting
* Teaching a male how to knit
* Bobbles
Knitting for a living
* Knitting with cotton
Knitting smocking
Dying yarn
Steeks
Knitting art
Knitting two socks (or other small tubular items) on two circulars simultaneously
* Fulling/felting
* Knitting with wool
* Textured knitting
* Kitchener BO
* Purses/bags
* Knitting with beads
* Swatching
* Long Tail CO
Entrelac
Knitting and purling backwards
Machine knitting
* Knitting with self-patterning/self-striping/variegating yarn
* Stuffed toys
* Baby items
* Knitting with cashmere
Darning
Jewelry
Knitting with synthetic yarn
Writing a pattern
Gloves
Intarsia
* Knitting with linen
Knitting for preemies
* Tubular CO
Freeform knitting
* Short rows
* Cuffs/fingerless mitts/arm warmers
* Pillows
* Knitting a pattern from an online knitting magazine
Rug
Knitting on a loom
Thrummed knitting
* Knitting a gift
Knitting for pets
* Shrug/bolero/poncho
Knitting with dog/cat hair
Hair accessories
* Knitting in public

Ahhh, nice and useless. And kind of entertaining, at least for me. (Sorry.)