i've lost something like seven pounds since friday, and it isn't on purpose. i feel like barfing all day long, and food doesn't sound good at all. today so far i've had half a packet of oatmeal, half a greek salad, and an orangina. i wouldn't recommend this as a weight loss technique.

last week i had finally gotten my wieght back up after the stomach flu episode. at this rate i will never make it to my elusive weight gain goal.

today i had attacks of powerful sneezes all day long. my students think i'm allergic to something. i'd like to say that i'm allergic to our urine stained stink carpet (sneeze), but it isn't true. today after recess my room smelled so bad...

my mom is up right now. it's kind of embarrasing because everyone knows that my mom is here, and it makes me feel dumb. she's helped with some grading and correcting in the teachers lounge, and she listens to all the gossip. and she cleaned my living room. so its good, but.... i might ask her not to come to school tommorow.

i cried in front of my principal and also the friendly cashier at taco bell on monday. i feel so hopelessly retarded.

i'm not going to tell you the story because i don't know the ending. what i will tell you is that these are not good days. i have so much stress and so much worry. i'd appreciate any prayers or well wishes. i wish monday was weeks away because i don't want to smile for the kids

please tell me this is just a dream, because now i can feel how the earth drops away with every step i take. i can feel gravity, how we are falling at thousands of miles per hour through a dark universe.

i am soooo glad it's friday. the girl who drew this is awesome. she even drew in my pointer with a star at the end. :o) 

i wonder if they still thought i was the best teacher after i made them practice lining up and walking in lines for 15 minutes instead of doing art in our air conditioned classroom. hmmmm.... yes. i can't wait to sleep in this weekend. one more day- i can do it! 

tommorow is the first day of school and i am NOT READY

the biggest squash at the fair. 

i've been putting in 11 or 12 hour days trying to get stuff ready. blah.
i greatly dislike my work computer. its a 3 year old (i think) G3 (mac) it is slow, and i feel stupid when i use it because i don't know how to do things on it that are no brainers on a pc. i hate feeling like i can't understand technology.

view from the 101 in shell beach. i miss the central coast. 

this has been my life for the past two weeks. i still have so much to do! this picture shows my reading corner, a ton of textbook materials, and some half completed bulliten boards. yay me! i like my nice, spacious portable. i will be sick of it by june, i'm sure. 

it seems that simply removing my last name from the who posted it thing has made me drop down google's list when you search for me. yay!!!

also, i just ate a piece of cheese bread and two and a half slices of sourdough from boudin. i'm still hungry. i hate going to sleep hungry, but it is time for bed.

today was the first day of teacher training. the content was fine, but my bum was quite sore because of the poor seating. (who sits 80 teachers on cafeteria table benches for 7 hours?)

i think i'll bring some cushioning tommorow

why is it that random actors have to be so damn political? do i really care who alec baldwin votes for? no.

well! my family is no longer living in my living room. :o) i think that 5 days of that is about all i could handle.

my classroom is coming along. i'll probably post a picture of it in a few days.

i got fancy chopsticks in san francisco's chinatown! i'm very excited. now i get to throw away the ones that one of my old roomates burned. ahhh... the joys of not sharing.

happy housewarming to me! i now have a dvd player/vcr. :o) thank you, parental units. come visit me more often.

look! i removed my last name! now... any ideas on the whole cache thing?

the parents are coming up tommorow afternoon, so i have much to do.

-hide the remnants of my secret double life
-do this weekend's dishes
-hide things
-hide messess
-hide more messess
-organize my classroom

aaaaaaaaah! my classroom! i'm getting seriously freaked out, folks. so tommorow i will be organizing furniture and perhaps putting up billboards. oh. one more thing to do... dissasociate my last name from this blog, which will be difficult because of google's cache thing. grrrr.... don't really want my students' parents reading my blog.