i hope the housing fairy is nice to ben, matt, and devon today

i scour the internet for hours, to bring you the best.

free association

1. Badminton:: mom
   
2. Obsessive compulsive :: disorder
   
3. Prosthetics:: fugitive
   
4. Sophistication:: martini
   
5. Hiphop :: pants
   
6. Stammering:: words
   
7. Property taxes:: house
   
8. Lowrider:: truck
   
9. Blowtorch:: fire
   
10. Formality::dress
    

i hope i'm dead when they cart me away



i dont pretend to know what it all means, but evil pupil is cool.

oh, and see how fast you type. I did 44 wpm. pretty good for the fact that i had to use capitals and that REALLY cramped my styleeee yo

i think i need someone to reprogram my brain so i recognize that i should do my projects now.

"Dr. Pepper to the Rescue"
quote of the day, from above news article; "The gunman, identified as Alberto de Santiago, released the hostages after officers delivered a six-pack of Dr Pepper to him, using a long stick to pass the soda through a door."

Awesomeness!

i think heaven is probably a nice cool swimming pool in the middle of hell.

"yes, laaaawwwd" -lori the evil ex roomate

sarah's blood pressure= 100/70.

whatever you do, don't spit!

do you think that s'mores are icky?
what about if the marshmallow is toasted over scented candles
and you dont have a grahmn cracker so you use a wheat thin.

mind you, i was not a part of this debauchery.

i'm supposed to "massage" my new scars, the nurse told me. i am so getting into this buisness of scar reducing. with my family history and my own history of skin issues, i might have dozens more moles removed. i mean, i'm 20 years old and i've had 15 biopsies, 6 of which turned out to be suspicious and required them to go back and take more of me out and give me stupidstupid stiches.

i hate my scars. they make me feel... i dont know. scared that there is some spot on me that is bad, that will become cancer... So here i am, wearing a bandage on my arm every day to reduce the puffiness of two of my scars from freshman year, and hoping that these three new ones dont go the same way. please dont, guys. i'll be so sad. i'm going to massage you darn things! and keep wearing band aids on you when i go in the sun.


How to improve the scar from cinccinati childrens hospital (educational message from me, the skin cancer fairy)

Scar massage
The body heals wounds by laying down new proteins. The healing area is a ridge that can be felt along the site of the cut. Massage can help this smooth out to a flat surface. Using a thick moisturizer (cocoa butter, vitamin E, shortening), rub the wound for 5-10 minutes twice daily. You must use enough pressure to change the color of the cut from pink to pale. Benefits from massage last until all the pink is gone from the wound. Wait for 3 weeks after the cut is repaired before massaging.

Sun protection
Any fresh scar (one that is still pink) can get sun burned, even in dark skinned people. Once a scar gets burned or tanned, it will not fade back to its normal color and a dark spot will always be present. It is best to avoid sun on a fresh wound. Clothing with long sleeves, full length pants and hats provide good sun protection. If the wound is not covered by clothing, it should be covered with sun block. The zinc and titanium oxide based sun blocks (which are waterproof) work the best, but any sun block with SPF of 15 or greater will work if applied often.

my tide detergent thing has a warning on the side. it seems that i'm not supposed to reuse the container to dispense beverages.

btw, my template is having problems... it should be fixed soon (i think) (i hope). it may be due to some server issues blogger is having.

naps are so much more satisfying than night-time sleep. i dont know why....

i'm walking like a cowboy tonight

my inner thigh muscles (are those abductors or adductors?) are sore from working out yesterday. plus i'm wearing tight jeans. plus i had hooked my hands into my waistband cowboy style inadvertantly while i walked past the mirror.

howdy.

i dreamed about you last night, tony pierce. you moved to san luis and i thought you were cute. i think ben was kinda upset about it, but since it was you, it was okay.
i also dreamed about my ex. he and cristalle picked me up in a truck and then they STOLE A MOTORCYCLE! i was upset about that. but then i think i held his hand.

don't worry ben. i save all my real lovin' for you.

i've never used the showers at the gym before. i'm thinking about it, though... maybe next time i will brave the legions of naked old ladies.

i slammed my finger in the door today. and i mean SLAMMED! its the only way to get it to stay closed, except it doesnt work if your finger is in there. i spent a few minutes wondering if my fingernail would fall off but so far it looks okay. it just impairs my typing :oP

leonard nimoy! i had no idea you were kinky like that

as a note, i say i'm dumb and stupid and retarded sometimes. but i dont really believe it. or i do things that are stupid yet i know that I am not.

i was just thinking that i dont want anyone to think that i am one of those girls who demean themselves, have no self worth, and think that what they say and do doesnt matter in the world. those girls make me sad

i dont know why, but i am pretty self confident in a lot of ways.
i know i make mistakes but that they dont have to define me
i like myself in general
i like my body

i'm comfortable with me, which is more unusual than it should be.

i met internet people today. it was quite interesting. it was blog meetup day, and nine of us slo bloggers (including me, ben, matt and brian) sat in the back of linnea's chit-chatting. of couse a bunch of it was tech-y stuff i didnt get, but its all good. :o) i have to feel dumb sometimes or else.... or else....
something.

later i'll put their urls up.
and.... then....
something.

i'm dumb.

i'm dumb. i've totally been sitting here playing on the barbie website. yay for dress up the barbie! yay for "paint" a picture!

last night, i tried to tell my roomie carolyn why tony pierce is so great. i dont think i conveyed the genius good enough cause all she said was that tony is "balding and not that cute." my dear carolyn! this is not the point!

she said she doesnt understand us crazy people and our "blo g-spots" as she likes to refer to them as.

There are strange things done in the midnight sun
By the men who moil for gold,
And the arctic trails have their secret tales
That would make your blood run cold.
The northern lights have seen queer sights,
But the queerest they ever did see
Was the night on the marge of Lake LaBarge
I cremated Sam McGee.

my copy of "the cremation of sam mcgee" by robert w. service- hardcover, 1987 ed., illustrated by ted harrison- is no longer coming. i ordered it yesterday but i just got an email saying i'd be refunded cause they didnt have it after all. you have no idea how sad i am.

carolyn and i decorated easter cookies today. hers might be perfect and all, but mine are much more creative.

i thought ben was going to be back in the early afternoon... so i've spent all day dressed up, waiting to go downtown perhaps. but its 8pm and no sign of ben... my linen skirt is all wrinkly from sitting at the computer doing homework, and my new red shoes have still never gone outside.

:o(

darnit. my template is refusing to update. again.

well then! i guess i'm not very dodgy, because i took a quiz that says i haven't done anythiing to deserve any prison time or fines. darn!

When i was eight my grandma died and to help me cope with it my mom told me that god took people with special talents or gifts up to heaven with him and the reason he took my grandma was because god thought it was time he learnt how to knit

eeek! reminds me of my big fat greek wedding. and circuses.

its probably a little late on this, but im thinking about getting evaluated for ADD, of the innatentive variety. hey, and evidently my left and right problems and my mixing up words and saying things i didnt mean could have something to do with that. (or an undiagnosed learning disability)

i dunno... i got phone numbers and office numbers, but i feel like its too late to matter. i'm graduating in two more quarters, and i dont know if i'd take meds even if i thought they would help. besides, they dont diagnose people with learning stuff usually unless they are having academic problems, which i am not. but i have never been a normal student... and i just want to know whats up.

i ate lots of oreos tonight. and read that mr. trans-fat the lawyer dropped his suit against kraft, because all he was after was publicity. he thinks he did the world a favor by educating them about the evils of oreos, but i read several statements by other lawmakers and lawyers that had major problems with his frivolous lawsuit and misuse of the legal system.

again i say, what idiocy.

let me eat my damn oreos

which is better? lots of projects or lots of tests?
this quarter leans on the lots of projects side... i only have one test this quarter (no finals even) and i got an A+.
so now i have to worry about my end of quarter mush-rush-push.

part of a poem randomly generated from my website:

i need to learn
how to know would be
issued notes will
be issued notes will be redesigned.
Even though my
professor made with no
problem.

no way


(excerpted for your pleasure)
"WASHINGTON, D.C. – U.S. government officials today unveiled a new $20 note design with enhanced security features and subtle background colors. The new design is part of an ongoing effort to stay ahead of the counterfeiting of U.S. currency.
...
The new $20 note will be issued in the fall, with new designs for the $50 and $100 following in 2004 and 2005. Redesign of the $5 and $10 notes is under consideration, but the $1 and $2 notes will not be redesigned. Even after the new money is issued, older-design notes will remain legal tender .
...
“This is The New Color of Money; it is safer because it is harder to fake and easier to check, smarter to stay ahead of tech-savvy counterfeiters, and more secure than ever,“ said the Bureau of Engraving and Printing’s Ferguson. “The security features are easier than ever to use, and we want the public to learn how to use them, to protect their hard-earned money.”

The most noticeable difference in the notes is the subtle green, peach and blue colors featured in the background. Different colors will be used for different denominations, which will help everyone -- particularly those who are visually impaired -- to tell denominations apart.
...
The new bills will remain the same size and use the same, but enhanced portraits and historical images of Andrew Jackson on the face of the note and the White House on the back. The redesign also features symbols of freedom -- a blue eagle in the background, and a metallic green eagle and shield to the right of the portrait in the case of the $20 note."

what idiocy.

To the individual who came to my blog at this time and from this place:
12 May 11:59 San Diego State University, San Diego, United States

This comment was not appreciated:
Wow thats really nice. Your going to make such an excellent teacher.
your queer boyfriend | 05.12.03 - 12:01 pm

G- I do not want to dislike you. I really don't. In fact, I wish we could be friends. I don't have any grudges toward you- I can think about you with no problem. But I don't like the feeling that someone I don't know would treat me poorly. I try to be a nice person- there arent many people that I could say have a problem with me. PLEASE don't be one of them. You've put mean comments on here before, and I would like you to stop. You can read my blog whenever you want, I really don't mind. And if you want to talk to me, send me an email please. If there is an issue I need to deal with, or something you need to say, please do it in private.

the gashlycrumb tinies by edward gorey

every time i do laundry, i get really dry skin on my hands. it bugs

and hey, i'm actually doing things this weekend! well, different things than i usually do. last night i slept in the living room in a tent i made with blankets and chairs... that was nice

monkeys are bad people. -carolyn

"Monkeys given computer to type on, but end up using keyboard mainly as toilet"

i like tuesday's hunkabutta post
i like the song "nice weather for ducks" by lemon jelly
i like the fact that they called their band lemon jelly. i bet keith would say its a bad band name, like he says about all the band names i make up.
i like dried fruit even though monique says dried apricots give you the runs

you gotta love those overactive bladder ads. i've seen two this afternoon.

i'd rather live with earthquakes than tornados.
how bout you?

today i met an interesting man. we'll call him Rob. Rob was standing on a ladder, painting a collumn in the education building with a little paintbrush.
swipe, swipe, swipe.
he told me that this is his third lap painting through all the buildings at cal poly. he's worked here for 28 years.
i hope this man enjoys his job.
because otherwise it would be hell.
you paint all the buildings, then you start over again. and it takes you 10 years to do it!
i would find that depressing.

i like the fact that if i was an elementary school teacher for 28 years, i would teach about 1,000 students. if i taught junior high, it would be something like 6,000.

i just took my first, last and only test of the quarter! i have no finals, and but one midterm this spring, but its not as easy as it sounds. i have about 20 projects.... yeah. maybe i should count em.

sleepysleepysleepy

what a nice afternoon

tonight, i want to camp. in the living room. and if i dont do it tonight, it will for SURE be tommorow.... cause unfortunatley i have to be at cal poly at 8.30 tommorow morning, for AVID tutor training. its this thing for teaching middle and high school kids skills and strategies they need to do good in school and get into college. i dont really feel like going right now, even though my professor made it sound really cool. blarg. i guess it'll be good for me, like broccoli.

yes!!!!!

Which Colossal Death Robot Are You?

the show must go on.