this was my away message: "i want to find those dumb checks SO BAD that i am driving back to the stupid school like a stupidhead"
so i drove to school and LOOKEd and didnt find them and left
and as i walked in the door talking to my mom and asking her if she moved some papers when she was up (cause that was when i saw the checks last) i lifted up something on the dresser by the mail and TA DA! 

with the (un)certainty of someone who has been frantically rifling through piles for an hour, i'm going to say that i don't think the checks are in my apartment. not really the conclusion i wanted to come to.

lets hope that i can find them after freaking out in my classroom tommorow morning. AAHHH! and i just cleaned up my desk a week ago and they weren't on the desk! and AHHH! i'm about to start swearing!

uhhhhh so i think i lost about 120 dollars in checks from my students' parents. i swear, they were in an blank envelope on my leather armchair about three weeks ago. um, i really need to find those because i don't want the parents to know what a retard i am and that i lost thier CHECKS. hopefully, i will update soon that i found them........

so i may be getting one of these things. yaaaay. yay for entering grades at home and etc etc even though it has to be a stupid mac because i'm at a machappy school district.

oh yeah... USED. ebay via my personal shopper/ little brother

i always thought he was a little bit pompous. a little bit too self conciously ....... deep?

i never SAID it but i just wouldn't really read everything cause it kind of sort of seemed like a little bit not him. at least, not the him he was with me

icq still exists? huh.

oh and i forgot to say that steve made me climb a tree yesterday and it was scary.

i'm sorry! i've been neglectful

but i was busy driving hundreds of miles (600? more?), winning speed scrabble and nerts, eating foods, etc etc. oh, and sharing a bed with my cousin that was just way too small.

but i'm back! i don't want to go to work tommorow, but of course i have to.

my pantry and fridge look a little classier than normal. i have two bottles of wine! i have four types of cheese!! i do not, however, have chocolate truffles from trader joes and i needneedneed them. need!

my site has been having PROBLEMS which prompted me to paste my 900 posts into a 188 page word document. lets see if this post dissapears into oblivion or not...

i'm so happy.... tonight i get to pack my car to head south after school tommorow! yaaaaaaaaaaay

we watched the sun set over the ocean. for living in california, i don't often sit there and watch the sun ever so slowly dip towards the horizon, just before it starts to slip faster than you'd expect under the water.

i saw the shadows the dancing waves made on the sand, which was sparkling gold with the last light of the sun. i've never seen that before.

i thought about how the beauty of it all would be impossible to capture on film... utterly impossible.

so i did this fun thing this morning where i woke up 15 minutes after school started.

whoops? i have no idea what happened. maybe i set the time on my alarm but didn't switch it to on. anyways, the ironic thing is that i even got to bed early last night!

i opened my eyes and it was 8.30. i was able to wash my hair, get dressed, and arrive at school at 8.53. the principal took care of my chilluns, after someone realized that school was starting and there was still a class full of kids standing outside.

at least i got 10 hours of sleep

i know that doctor pepper makes me burp, so why did i drink a can right before my parent teacher conferences today?

best answer to a question on this week's science test:

Q: How is an asteroid like a comet? How are they different?
A. It is big and cute!

Gidget1300: i found some new music
Hobbes Q: what is it?
Hobbes Q: is it drug music?
Gidget1300: totally
Gidget1300: devendra banhart
Gidget1300: total drug music
Hobbes Q: wow
Hobbes Q: how did you find it??
Gidget1300: drugs.
Gidget1300: it was one of those free cd with a brick of coke deals
Hobbes Q: lame
Hobbes Q: totally lame

yay! it seems that i am -supposed- to have a heater in my living room. my lack of a said heater is therefore the apartment complex's problem. they come tommorow to check out the shituation.

i have this problem where i like shoes. these came for me in the mail today. they are still cute, even in size 11. i mean, have you ever seen a shoe with a cuter sole? it is probably a good thing that 90% of the times i try to find shoes, they have nothing that fits me. :o) 

i cleaned up my dresser a tad, just to give the lavendar a nice place to live. 

porn. porn porn porn.

my mom is a little suspicious. she gave me a very funny look when my fortune cookie fortune read, "a distant romance is beginning to look more promising."

i fended off her suspicious with a bald-faced lie, so never fear! (damn. i am too good. the dark side must be strong with me.)

what a day off!

it rained, and i worked on report cards in my classroom from 11.30 to 3... but oh, did it feel soooo good to be done.

i got to yell at some 9th graders who were setting off little firecrackers under the overhang of the kindergarten building. it was great

status: dog- growing back tail feathers after unfortunate thyroid incident. mother- 10 minutes south of san jose. photographer- sick and doing report cards, report cards, report cards. 

"he is unnatainable, like a unicorn."

carolyn, who i am engaged to, says i am allowed to kiss boys, but not snuggle with other women.

but she totally never wore the 25 cent engagement ring i bought her and i wore MINE until it died!

i brought this on myself, obviously.

friday i was bragging about how i haven't been sick yet this school year. so OF COURSE i came down with a sore throat saturday, and a case of stomach flu (?) all today. at least this time i wasn't all by myself and had someone to make me cinnamon toast. so, i didn't exactly get all those things done today that i thought i would.

i should never tempt fate, because i will lose every time.

yay! i will soon be getting hairclips, including the dead mermaid specimen pictured above, shipped directly from michelle in canadia! this will mark only the second time... no, third time that i have received something in the mail from an internet friend. (first was a five iron frenzy video from brad the trumpet player's mom, second was a card from meghan) i am way excited. 

i said it last night, and i will say it again: i am absolutely living for the weekends.

spend all week teaching, trying to get through the week. once wednesday comes i feel like i'm home free cause wednesday is taco bell day and thursday is half day and friday is free breakfast and then the weekend. and steve. and sleeping and not having to talktalktalk at people all day long.

i can't teach if you are talking like that
who is making that noise?
everyone go back outside. we're going to try coming in quietly again.
put your backpack under your desk
please stop leaning back in your chair
page 126. page 126. what page? page 126.

in the back of my mind the whole damn time i am thinking of how nice it is to lay in bed and know you don't really have to get up... i really don't think that there are many feelings that are better, unless it is the feeling of being appreciated.

my new neighbors have the charming habit of spitting their gum out on the stairs up to our apartments.

too bad i have the charming habit of tattle taling to the management, suckers!!

today after school, after the afterschool academy, and after talking with an anxious parent on the phone, i accidentally threw my keys away instead of the broken ball point pen i'd picked up from under table 3.

and.... why was there a battery powered toothbrush under table 3? (along with several jackets) is someone living under the desks?

some complete IDIOT has been knocking on every available surface in the apartment downstairs from me for like ten minutes straight. both downstairs windows, the door.... finally i went out on my balcony to find out what the hell is going on.

some guy in his late teens says his cousin is sleeping in the bedroom and won't wake up and answer the door. unless i am mistaken that apartment is occupied by a single lady in her late 30's.

stop knocking... PLeaseeeeeeeeee

another reason i am in love with bunny macintosh: she quoted neutral milk hotel.

my students elected bush this morning in a sweeping 14 to 9 vote. (there were a few abstainers)

in fact, i could safely say that we elected bush surrounded by hearts and stars, because for some reason my students were liking such ballot decorations.

the kids vote for whoever their parents talk about, so it is fun times. i wouldn't tell them who i was voting for, because as one little girl said, "it isn't nice to ask!"

i got up at 7.31 this morning! and i still was able to get to school early enough to accidentally do someone else's morning bus duty. i am so proud.

i'm also wearing yesterday's clothes
and i ate school lunch ("lasagna")

i took a two hour nap a minute ago. i am getting run down, and it looks like i am forced to teach the three hour a week after school thing myself. i was originally sharing it, but the other teacher backed out. they tried to find someone else, but it looks like i'm screwed. it sucks because it takes me about an hour to an hour and a half to get everything done to prepare for the next day in my classroom. that means that i don't leave until almost 5 pm, when it is starting to get dark. i like leaving at 4 much better.